I had an interesting weekend.. Interesting enough to stay home on a Saturday night. :)
I'm whacking some chocolates right now. Yum! Mom bought lotsa chocolates from Aussie and I am going to put all the weight back on. I've lost quite a weight while mom was away in Australia for a month. Wonder why they sell all the crappy Cadbury chocolates here. I'm tasting 'Rocky Road' right now and it's awesome! It contains flavored jellies, nuts and coconuts. Super yummy!
Anyways, I was looking at myself lately and I've succumbed to a realization that I've change alot ever since me and Vie have broken up. It disgusts me to even mention his name right now since that I hate him so much. Does it always have to be like this after you break up with someone you once loved? Not only you lost a lover, but also a friend. It hurts to see things end that way since we've gone through the good and hard times together. At the end of the day, you will not see or talk to that person anymore.
Why we've broken up? Well, let's see.. It's such a long story. We spent out last days being lovers for about a week in December after Christmas. The entire holiday was nothing but arguments. After I returned home, I realized the problem that we fought so much was because we both have changed over the year and it's like I do not know him anymore and so does he. I was not the person who he have met 3 years ago and it frustrates me so much that I didn't really understand why he does that and that! I kept nagging and he wasn't the same sweet and caring person I've known anymore. He changed alot!
So no matter what, I did not see the reason to break things off coz we promised each other that no matter what we will stick together and be together. I guess the faith in me was stronger than what he has for me. I was nothing but disapointed because he made a choice after to end it for he was the one who gave me faith in this. He did not end it nicely, rather he ended it with no proper closure. I tried my best to save the relationship but it only lasted for about less than 2 weeks because he met someone else. Sure she was a rebound and I was told that he did it to push me away because it was for the best of me. How could I return to someone's arm again when you know that the person that you loved is still with someone else? He is just plain stupid and I'm so disapointed that he has turned to a monster! We remained being friends even though I did not take him back. Honestly, I would have if he had broken things off with his rebound and explain things to me. He chose not to and still insists to have me back. How could I? Seriously I have no idea how he thinks anymore! It wasn't the same person I've known anymore! I'm not some stupid doormat or some dumb bitch!
So after all this while, he still tells me sweet things and how much he can't wait to see me again and that he regretted everything. He said I will understand why he did what he supposed to one day. You know while he was doing this, it seemed to me that he still really does love me but why does he need that rebound girl? Seriously!!
All this went on until last Wednesday when he fought with me. See what happened was, it all started when his girl came talking to my BESTFRIEND Eunice due to her insecurities. She suspected that she has been a rebound all this while so she came adding my friend Eunice on facebook and tried talking to her. After one point of the conversation, me and Eunice realized that Vie was telling his rebound girl all kinds of crap. Not only he was cheating on her, he was cheating on me as well. How can you tell that person like our relationship mean nothing when all this while it really does meant something to me or us? Moreover doing this when you still wanted me back all this while? It hurts and I really HATE him after! I also reliazed after that he lied alot too telling me that he hasn't met her although they hooked up. Bullshit! Now you can upload all the pictures of you and her together when you came back during chinese new year isn't it? Eunice defended me and told her off that she's a rebound and Vie came fucking us up for that! So she's a rebound, so you rather save her than us? So why wanting me back? What the fuck was he trying to do here? Seriously, I told him that I do not want to see him, or know him, or want to know him. I HATE him! I absolutely do not respect him as a person and it really hurts to see this coming from the person you really loved once before. It's shocking to see this coming from him!
I am happy for what I am now. I've become a stronger and better person! I am so going to do well in life and deserve what I deserve. Anyways, I would like to thank you for opening up my eyes! Seriously, I wouldn't be what I am for the past 5 months if it weren't for you..
I am now one of the people (out of the million) who thinks people who turns steward/stewardess are all assholes! They are too carefree and selfless cold hearted!
